taniaanis274's Hoodstars

since i've been gone <3

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 07:12:32 GMT

been busy.school's been pretty goot.pictures! sorry.cant be arsed to write more. maybe another day. <33 missed you hoodstars.

yes i got my new vaio laptop so i did the whole webcam testing out bit.
and yes. the pictures were taken after i'd just woken up.
<3

the new beginning.<3

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 16:32:13 GMT

saturday INDIA

1200 left the house to go last minute shopping for presents and whatnot

400 came home and took my brother swimming for the last time in india

630 car came left to the grocery store and proceeded to the airport

845 arrived at the airport.went in.went to the lounge and went online

930 checked in onto the plane

1000 take off

sunday malaysia

4 am malaysia time and 2 am india time arrived in kl

530 reached home

7 left to celebrate independence day with the dad and sister

12 brunch with dad and sister

1 shopping with the sister

5 home

7 dinner with dad and sister

cant remember what happened after that. think we went1 out again.

this morning.

12 woke up shopping for college things with dad and sister

3 finished shopping went to college apartment to drop off some things but not all

5 went to the food fair to buy dinner

7 broke our fast

8 went shopping with my sister

11.50 came home

tuesday malaysia

1.25 online

1.45 pack bags for college tmrw

8 leave to college for orientation with dad and sister in tow.

9.30 orientation

12 ish orientation should finish proceed to unpacking all bags and cleaning my room

3 ish.meet jantra and her boyfriend at my college

7 break my fast

fasting works.i feel skinny.

had an awesome day today. i love the sales here crazy. i bought the cutest heels in white for 25 ringgits which is approximately 8 american dollars.

tell me that isnt awesome. i will take pictures so you can tell me how much of a steal those shoes were.

also bought a bag (11 usd), pair of wedges in blue (15 usd), sunnies (8usd)...

i love the sales<333

i havent had enough sleep since i came here which is really bad. i spent the whole night on the phone yesterday and my eyes have the most annoyingly massive eye bags under them as a result of lack of sleep and my sister elbowing my eye about fourty times yesterday night. i put a bolster in the middle but she kicked it down and kicked me.in her sleep.

everytime she kicked me i kicked her back and then she'd kick me back and i'd stop cause damn that girl can kick really well in her sleep. what the fuck okay. it hurts.sheesh

4 days of my time

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 16:15:09 GMT

so i got my diploma. i finished my exam today for computer programming and i get my cert in 21 days..and i have no classes til the 2nd my flight's the day after tmrw.and i'm free.
all i need to do in the next 2 days is ::
-pack my bags.again
-pick up my dress from the tailors
-burn the cd for my mums office mate
and thats it.
theres this dinner thing tmrw which i might go to.
and im baking brownies for the operator at my mums office cause she's such a niec person and she doesnt know or have the time to do it herself and im forever telling stories about them whenever i make them..

anyhoo my china/thai/filo picture.
i personally see none of that in this next picture but wtv.
highlights bitchh!

sisterhood of the jeans she stole from my wardrobe that bitch.

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 14:33:42 GMT

that made no sense. i know. but im still mad pissed that my sister took my fucking jeans and altered them.whatthehell.she got my jeans looking fugly now.

but i love her.
im tania a.m.17 years old.
my sister is farah a.m different a's.our middle names are different that means. she's 23.

i love my sister. trust me things between us werent always peachy. there was her whole lesbian interlude where i always got kicked out just so she and her gf could go do all that shit in the room and i'd be mad pissed and come up telling my mum or messing things up for her cause fuck thats my room too and you dont get freaky on my bed period.
anyhoo. we're cool now. better since she left us back in saudi arabia and came flying to malaysia to study. and we just got closer ever since. we used to hate each other and now we're almost so alike its funny.

differences between me and my sister? i'm not as hardworking as she is and she definitely doesnt procrastinate as much as i do. she's the responsible one out of the two of us. the better liar fo' sure. she plays the piano.she listens to james blunt. she loves jewel's leaving on a jet plane. she gets straight a's and still maintains a kick ass social life. she dresses relatively more decent than i do? well not more decent. more boring? she's very much into long sleeved tight tops that arent pretty and look like they cost $10 for 3. which explains why she steals my shit alot but she'll wear something on top of wtv it is of mine that she stole. she wears studs instead of dangly earrings.she's fond of all pants. i wear jeans im not too into pants cause i think its way too formal like sometimes. she can always be reached online & on her cellie/s. cause she's almost always got both of them on her at all times. she wears white makeup and she uses fourty pounds of black eyeliner on each eye.sorry.not pounds of eyeliner.sticks of eyeliner.my bad. she wears contacts and doesnt dye her hair but had it highlighted blonde and im almost certain that girl is tryna be white cause with her blonde hair and her bright green contacts i dont know what else she's tryna be.....and she wants to be like everybody else..she's more into her slow music and playing the piano,clarinet etc.she loves to straighten her hair..

me.im tania. im fully aware of my chinese heritage so i allow myself to venture out of the typical malaysian tracksuit and oversized t-shirt range of clothing and wear those bright yellow striped socks with those sunshine yellow shoes and that bright pink mini skirt. im just kidding. im not that out there but i do wear short tihngs that you'd associate lalas as wearing. i like shorts.mini skirts. halters.spaghettis. i dont pair them up cause i think being too revealing would make people think you're sorta half cheap back where i live so i do cover up with a jacket or wtv from time to time. i wear less make up than my sister. i hate black eyeliner.dont hate. sorry.i just think its so normal. i like white eyeliner.peachy blush. and i dont go overboard like she does. i dye my hair almost every other day. i wear hoops.dangly earrings. necklaces. chains. bracelets. bangles etc. i recently got highlights. i love to go tanning.i love the beach. i love the pool. i love wearing oversized sunnies whilst my sister likes the small sporty ones that cover chinese eyes perfectly.i love nice clothes. she doesnt seem to care about what she wears. i love heels. she loves wedges. . . i dont wear contacts.. online.i choose who i want to chat to? i dont really answer all the time. and i hardly use my cellphone.people have started to call my mums phone to get to me. haha funny shits.i'm not as social as my sister is cause i dont tolerate people who talk to me on the streets but she will sometimes which pisses me off endlessly. i dont get hurt as easily as she does.i'm very much into performing. i did ballet. she did kickboxing. i played the piano and quit. i went into brownies and quit.she went into brownies and graduated to being a.shit. whats after brownies? cookie? wtv it was. she was that. girl guide! thats it..yes. she quit ballet. i didnt. i stopped cause we had to move. i took the modeling offer when it came to me.she rejected it.i dance in shows & in clubs && i act.& sing and all that. she doesnt. she's theone in the club who smokes and drinks in the corner.i hate straight hair cause everyone back home has straight hair. i love perms.and body waves...

how we're alike? we fight over my mothers shoes and belts constantly.
my mother wouldnt leave me and my sister with my younger brother for longer than 3 hours cause we're equally irresponsible when it comes to babysitting..
we love to fight over the mirror.
we both take a long time to get out for dinner.
we shop quite alot and we're both fond of wastin money.
we dont count how much money we waste. i think we should start.
we fight over my clothes alot.
we love each other to bits.
we love to annoy my younger brother to bits.
its funny.we're so different but shit i love her.
and i'm coming home.
best believe these sisters gon' be seen a hella lot around town..

it's funny cause we dont look alike in any of the pictures but in real life people are always messing us up cause we're the same height,same weight,same body shape,and everything.we look alike and strangers always calling us twins. lol cant tell in the pictures though.hmm

updated love<3

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 09:32:00 GMT

ya girl suntanners has burgundy hair with auburn & irish copper highlights.
my brother bought an ipod today cause my mum wouldnt share hers with him.
he's given me a list of songs to put on.what 8 year old do you know listens to kid rock && belle & sebastian?
shouldnt he be listening to disney songs?
ferreal.what the hell.

what does independent mean to you?how independent are you?

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 12:35:53 GMT

i'm meant to be in class but that got cancelled. and im in the mood to write so here it goes.
independent.
definitions from dictionary.com:
''not influenced or controlled by others in matters of opinion, conduct, etc.; thinking or acting for oneself: an independent thinker.''
'' not influenced by the thought or action of others''
" not dependent; not depending or contingent upon something else for existence, operation, etc."
"not relying on another or others for aid or support."
there were so many more definitions but i picked out a few cause these are the ones i think of when i think of the word independent..
the last one really gets to me. im not independent.at all. i dont think i've met anyone who is truly independent either. and i swear i'd like to be one day.
i think independence is when you have your mind set right. you know what you like,what you dont, what you think is right, what you think is wrong you cannot be pushed to think otherwise.you're stubborn with the way you think .your mind is yours and your thoughts are what you made of what you saw,did,heard etc and thats not going to change just because someone told you something.
independence is when you dont count on anybody to make you better.to make you feel better. its when you count solely on yourself to run your life day to day without asking for help or anything else from anybody else.
i think independence is when you go through so much crap that you just dont share with anyone and you manage to cope with it all on your own.
you earn your own money, respect.you literally dont depend on anyone.you buy your own food, your own house etc.you are you and you can make do on your own.

im prolly going to come back and read what i wrote and think wow i just described someone so strong but also something else which i cant quite figure out at the mo.

im not independent.
i depend on my parents income for food,shelter,love,support & everything else i need to keep me running.
i couldnt live a day without not talking to my family.its crazy.i go crazy if i dont talk to my little brother or wtv for over a week. i need at least some means of communication with someone. its how i get this feeling that im not such a shitty person after all cause i got my family still loving me and supporting me through all the good & bad in my life.
i depend on my friends for love,support & to keep me happy from a day to day basis.
i talk to them daily.three of them that i love the most.and the rest that i talk to every once in awhile and i feel a huge gush of love when i talk to them and i send it all back. i love my friends.they've been there for me when there are things i just feel too stupid to share with my family about and its just crazy how much they've done for me.
without them i'd feel like a complete retarded messed up loser i swear. but they got me thinking im pretty damn awesome so that makes me happy :)
they're my elevator when im feeling down. they bring me up and put that smile on my face that was gone a good two minutes ago.
i have a mind of my own. but im constantly thinking and expressing my opinions about things so when i hear other peoples opinions about it i'll come back and ponder my ass off and take into consideration they're opinions adn then mine changes and i know sometimes that can be a good thing but i think my thoughts get too easily influenced i should stop doing things like that.
respect.i think if you earn respect because of who you are. what your personality's like after you've been through what you've been through then you're more independent than a big man who earns his own money and lives in his own house buys his own things supports himself fully etc but earns his respect from his occupation or his family name.

im not independent.
at all.
but thats something i think , no.i hope will change as i grow up.
if i'm not independent SOMEHOW by the time im 18 and a coupla months [i gave myself some time by adding a coupla months] then i am beating my own ass and gettin it into gear.
i think when you're too dependent on people you're a burden.
and i'm a burden.
altho people might not say it..

some people just dont understand

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 11:20:21 GMT

thats me. wow i see deons & essence blogs and im thinking okayy.
lol and here's me thinking hoodstars damn near dead.clearly i've missed alot.
buts its okay.

my mum bought an ipod today :)
my tailor forgot to stitch lining with my dress :(
im leaving in 6 days :)
im taking an exam in about 4 days :(
im so happy go lucky.
but i sense angry people.
hmmmmmmmm....
:)

To mialyasia - will you marry me?

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 16:07:25 GMT

aww D.thats so sweet. & yes agree with person-who-left-a-comment-before-me-completely-forgot-who-it-was-i'm-so-very-sorry. very bold move.
let's hope she gets back to you!

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breakthrough

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 16:01:59 GMT

funny email i got today.im sorry i couldnt tell you how he was like before darling. i just felt that you should make your own mind about him. i didnt want to kill any chances of friendship between the two of you. just cause i have a massive problem against his ass dont mean i should bitch about him to everyone.it wouldnt have been fair.

i have exactly 10 days left.
im very much behind with my computer programming. i have this crisis bit next thursday where i have to come in the morning and do the last chapter of the book with my teacher and then come back in the evening to sit for my exam.
i'll be fine.i'm ready.

i dont think i'll be making vegas this year. my brothers are coming back from kansas and my mum & my younger brother are going to be coming down from india so i think its a family reunion. my younger brothers been dying to get back since we got here.

it makes sense that im going to miss the little boy that i argue with every single day dont it?

i need to get back fast.i need curtains, bedspreads & so many other things for my room.orientation on the 3rd.my passport isnt with me yet so they have about a week to get it to me or i'll have to get an emergency exit pass thing.

i'm on youtube.
facebook.
msn.

xx
suntanners

funny how i look completely different in all my pictures. hmm.

SO..

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 17:18:27 GMT

funny how that whole being stronger & more responsible bit just lasted oh i dont know a whole 2 minutes?
i literally broke down crying when i found out i got it.& i im-ed my brother.who texted my sister back home to call me and texted my dad to call me and everybody called and everybodys just being so awesome and yes. i realised i'm not that strong after all.

independence day tmrw so i have a whole day to just take time to myself and get away from classes.
prolly spending it shopping. i havent gone to the tailors to pick up my dress * jacket yet. need to get camera batts.my ones gone out.i need new mascara.

updated :)