to be by yourself. It's actually not that bad. It's peaceful, no petty annoyances, no distractions. Just you, you're computer, and whatever you want to do with the space around you. So lately I've been experimenting with a bunch of stuff. I haven't exclusively shown it to everyone so I guess this is it, this is just one of many things I have.

http://djstylez.kfcizzle.com/porfolio/sound/allornothinmix1.mp3

One day, I was sitting on my computer, thinking I should be working on some sort of song. Then I got back on the track with "Making the Song"... I doubt it's going to be finish but I'm trying to polish it anyway.

On a different occasion, I'm sitting on my computer with something thought on my mind, and I decided that I must learn a korean song. Well,  It was late so I just practiced on the chorus. I got it down in a couple tries, just goes to show how fun and easy learning korean is !............though I still don't understand anything they say! haha.

I never have the same type of drive when there is spectators you know.. I don't understand it. Like it's not something I would do on my free time at the apartment. It's frustrating because it's just one of my rare weaknesses. Am I embarrassed to stand out?....

Haha, these thoughts are just coming in like a train wreck. But really, yesterday I was thinking about blogging for a long time and with a lot weird and recent situations, but it was late enough for me to call it a night.

Heres the situation: I'm at the apartment jacking wireless from the neighbors because Darren already canceled the internet. Thus, Kevin moved out (taking his computer only) to his friends place. I basically spent yesterday and today cleaning the ENTIRE kitchen with the exception of some dishes which were not mines. When I say entire I mean ENTIRE. From the countless bottles and cans, cartons and kfc boxes, dishes, counter, fridge, oven, stove, microwave, cabinets, the mold like stuff from the floor ( yes I mopped and scrubbed basically the entire kitchen). I got sick of the "dead body" odor there. Which came from the trash/trash can, meat from the fridge, meat juices in the fridge, raw meat in the sink underneath the dishes...you get the idea. I was in CSI mode with rubber gloves and camera action. I'll show em when I get back?

I took the liberty to toss out full trash bags several times, vacuumed, cleaned some stains off the walls, bleached the sponges and towels, etc etc. I'm surprised I didn't get an infection!...although my eye was getting irritated ..... I sprayed the place and cleaned the place with Lysol, Comet, Pine Sol, Bleach, and that green apple forumla. All that and my room is still a mess.

Now I remember what I was going to rant about.... my other internship! the coordinator does not seem to know how to handle this thing. As I've been getting emails about Meeting on monday, meeting on wednesday, friday, and now NEXT monday?? Shit is irritating when I have to commute from Oakland and I have to not overlap internship 1 and stuff like dental appointments and basketball games. Pretty worked up off that, but just a lot of driving which idk irritates me to waste gas. I do plan on getting myself a hybrid vehicle soon.

The thing about me is I will not take anything I didn't earn or deserved (most of the time). I hate having things handed to me on a silver platter. I guess I'm as independent as they come. I want it all, but I want them the right way, for the right reasons.

What I don't want is another hostile apartment. EDC says: MM GOI. SEI HOI. and Russell Peters: Do the right thing. The situation @ primero grove has been a bunch of twists and turns. To be honest, I thought we already settled it. It's on you guys now.

Dream league Part 2? Heres the thing. I never verbally agreed to play another season. I never paid for the roster spot. So what do they do? Pay for my roster spot upfront, add someone else who is taking my starting position. Why need me then? The thing is there's just some people that you wouldn't want to have on the team. If you look closer, I get around under 4 shot attempts per game, play about the whole game, so how can you expect me to consistently get my shot off when it's not known when I am going to get it. What sense does that make? I suppose if I miss 3 shots I am playing terribly. I look at last season as sacrificing myself for the rest of the team, and I don't need this because frankly you can think what you want, I know what I can do and what it takes. It's all about the W.

.... Ok, I'll call it a night.